another day full of colors

it's really really late and I want to hit the bed. But more than that, I want to write. But in this state of 'somnia', i dont know what i will write

Another day of the AP workshop....and its not very interesting. Not only that, I feel im learning very little. I have learnt this one thing for sure. Wise are the men, who give college over once they come to know that it's college that's coming in the way of their learning.
Despite this feeling, I dont think it's the kind of thing you'd want to give a miss. I mean, this place is fascinating. It is for me. This is my first brush with a lot of different kind of people. There is the mass and the class. There are some very angry people, who have some serious, grave complaints with people around them. There are people who complain about the professors about the curriculum. There are those who like filling their time with work while others crib over the lack of it. But they are all obsessed with themselves. They are very talented but I dont think they're humble. Honestly, their promptness, their unmistakable confidence, crispness, art of persuading and above all sureness about themselves and what they want to do can all be very daunting. They are all smart-talkers. But this is a little disturbing. They are glib and obsess over language. They obsess over spellings and pronunciations. But I think spellings and pronunciations are petty. One can discuss them but not fixate on them. Anyhow, therefore one's got to experience this, step out and absort the place. I'm quite certain, it might help sometime.

Another day in which we discussed a little more of COLORS channel. It really beats me. One day I dont understand the channel philosophy. The next day I get some sense of it, why the channel is the way it is and then the next day Im again lead a merry dance by more discussion.
I think GEC is a difficult category to handle. It tries to be everything to everyone. So I fail to understand why we have a primary TG and a secondary TG. I think COLORS has something for everyone but it still stresses on disruptive programming and aggressive marketing. Again, it really beats me.

Working in a group has been very gratifying and ungratifying. One can free-ride but not all the time. In a group, someone will get an 'aha' moment, the moment of truth, the one break-through but others look at each other dazed, just to see if their disappointment is shared. You can take your own time, if you're working alone, which is nice, but here you can never free-ride!

Federer won yet again. The man seems invincible. I usually like underdogs but he is one man, one man who really really respects his victories I feel. I dont think he's even overcome by winning so much. But yes, he won yet again. 3 straight sets. I really like tennis but I dont think I can play because I think I have a tennis wrist. Actually, truth be spoken I love a lot of sports but not particularly good in any. I was SCAM last year (Sports Committee) in my college. Did not do much for the committee apart from playing. Next year there was a strong anti-incumbency, so I stepped down :d but i continued playing. I remember last year, in some table-tennis tournament, I had to keep score. But the game is so fast, it was so difficult for me to keep pace with it and also keep the score. I would goof up in scoring points for the winning player. I think it could be something to do with not having confidence in myself in being able to score or something to do with math or memory. In any case, I stepped down but kept playing, not particularly well.

Oh the plan was to keep it short, so I must end here. There are lots of things I feel like writing but there's enough time and enough to do and enough to mull-over and LOTS to sleep :)

Later