Why Why and more!

i took my Marketing Strategy exam and it wasnt a very big surprise that I didn't think I did very well. Not only was it long, but one had to keep looking at some 'strategic orientations' in the Howard cases, which have 'Do not copy' written all over them, which distracts me quite a lot.

Ya, then I had to deal with the dissertation committee as regards the grade loss because of not adhering to the deadlines but what they dont know is that I laugh at deadlines. Partly because I cant meet them and partly because you can't have deadlines for everything. We want to do our dissertations in our own time, in topics that interest us and topics that we can manage in the limited amount of time. We all started with some lofty ambitions, which were snubbed somewhere in the way. But musnt we really start indeed with a lot of ambitions.

Anyhow, we couldn't meet the deadlines regarding the submission of the dissertation premise and guide and therefore had to suffer the grade loss. Not that it matters so much but it's not about the grade-loss. I think they should just breeze through things such as dissertation, which is supposed to be personal, something that you really want to study and absorb completely in your own time. But these people issuing deadlines will not understand :(.

I seriously think, we must teach our children to go beyond formal education. I think it is more important to be cultured, to respond to nature and appreciate art and to be humble more than anything else. I was reading somewhere that our sense of aesthetics is also very skin-deep. So we could look at Taj Mahal with awe but not really think about what must've gone into making it, where from must Shah Jahan gotten the werewithal to build such a beautiful relic (which is a stupid thought ofcourse because he was the almighty Mughal King then so he must have everything he wanted). So often times we look at what is in front of us and not what is behind it. But uff I can't begin to preach.

And yes we had the Why Why session today with PAT. It is this unique, voluntary class wherefrom students can walk out or walk in anytime. There is no attendance and no exam. We can talk about anything under the sun. Basically we ask all these existential questions about why me, why you, why I, why love, the sense of touch, etc. etc.
We bare ourselves out to the fellow students, sharing our personal spaces. I have finally concluded it's not a bad thing actually. I mean, there's no harm in telling people about your life. Afterall there's much more to you than you could ever tell anyone in words. That's the thing, one could think that he knows everything about a certain person but still know that little. But this can be done without expecting the other person to bare himself out in return. Anyhow, it just brings out how different everyone is.
Ya so, I shut my eyes, and I was walking alone on a beach, and walking and walking. I could feel the the soft and coarse, white and brown, wet and dry sand between my toes. I walked along the beach, smelling the saltness of the sea and the beach. I walked and walked and see another human being on the beach. We see each other and pace faster towards each other. And then we start running, and obviously I know who the person was. I hold his hand and we take flight. We fly and fly and fly out of the universe and then the person disappears and then I come tumbling earth-bound. And I fall into a big, red, pulpy tomato and keep slipping trying to come out, and then I fall onto a sunflower petal and dance madly. And then back to the beach. I followed the instructions but failed to undertstand the significance of the exercise. Basically, it was about unresolved issues with some close relatives, lost friends and family. But i don't know. The setting was so romantic that it didn't cross my mind. Anyhow, the tomato was supposed to be mother's womb, which also I couldn't quite fathom and the sunflower was some authority that we wished to challenge, which also got lost on me. Anyhow, that's that. I'm sure it had some deep inexplicable meaning, which i'll understand in some time.
But i still see a lot of promise in these, out of the ordinary sessions where you eat chocolates and do all these exercises to explore your relationships with people, nature and yourself.

But I'm an optimist anyway. Infact like one of the opening lines in a school debate said- I'm an unabashed romantic!

Later