a state of bafflement!

i've perhaps not been so baffled about things in a long time. Or i have been but not about a very important thing, or about something that didnt matter so much. But this does. As far as the rural studies are concerned, everything around me is in a state of flux. There are soo many places to visit, some people to go with but the dates are fixed. These dates, they are my biggest problem. Why are they so inflexible. Weeks and months and years give us much more time right!

So anyhow, me and Nerdy just realized that we have huge break facing us, because we dont have those electives and I think home beckons us. But there are also a lot of other things. Dissertation- remember the big fat burden I keep cribbing about. So the literature review is due very soon. So i'll have to stay back for that. Besides, that inexplicable bug inside me that urges me to attend many classes. Why can't I let go??? Am I aging or something??

So ya deadline in an hour and a half about the place and the people and dates when we're going, but have no clue about any. But no one need worry. Everyone will do his or her thing, according to what suits him/her best. Since I've been a bag of beans for Rajasthan, I think I will go there only. I'll pull someone along if nothing works out.

Anyhow, apart from this, Consumer Insight Mining test was good fun. I submitted it exactly 5 minutes before the deadline. So that be sorted. Then I saw this really good play directed by our theater society- Sankalp which promises to take theater to newer heights in my college. It was an adaptation by one of Woody Allen's 'God', which keeps asking what is reality. It was called 'The End' and one should look at a classic ending and then write backwards to get an end, a middle and a beginning. But I'm not sure. Not in the sense of challenging it, I'm just not sure.

And by the way, a little bit of some really really good music can bring that much needed salience into the day. And today Yann Tiersen is all that I seem to be inspired by. Perhaps, someday in the future I will remember that the day when so many other things were happening, Yann Tiersen was constant.
Anyhow, music is therapeutic. But one can't look at music and fragrance with any detachment. I can't seem to isolate them from the experiences that they were a part of too. So Nike and Dove perfumes always remind me of people. The mango lip balm reminds me of a place and 'O humdum Suniyo Re' reminds me of 2003 World Cup, when it was 'plum'!

So that's it now, nothing very profound to say :) I think I'll sleep and have a good and peaceful day tomorrow.

Later