Delhi is under siege, and how

So like a resolve of a bull, i did manage to come back and write something. It wasn't difficult after all. So much has happened in a day' time that it can be retold with an awesome flair by anyone who has merely witnessed it.

Delhi is under siege again. This is to say that when I got calls all the way to the night, I knew I had to say 'I was ok', but not in context to what. 

In the morning, Delhi suffered one of those man-made attacks, a bomb blast in this case which has caused about 12 deaths and many injuries and some more callousness. I hesitate to even call it 'unfortunate' or 'sad' and 'inhuman' because I know not what amongst these or outside these or including these, this circumstance is. i can't help but feel exposed, to an outside world that is staring at the 'seat of power' too hard, that has the 'hub of politics' on it's radar or the view finder. That deliberate swallow and gulping down the self-assurance that 'nothing will happen', 'there are so many people here, you're not alone', 'there's the unconquerable human spirit', 'You can always run' have become such a weary-with-use emotion. 

In the evening, Delhi suffered another jolt, a literal jolt. While I was on the phone with Zoo, i felt the earth shake. And then I re-evaluated and I was still feeling it shaking. I remarked to Zoo but quickly glossed over. I exclaimed to her that only today was I reading a report from Hindustan Time that states Delhi to be in a seismic zone and how Delhi is so vulnerable. http://www.hindustantimes.com/Delhi-among-30-cities-at-high-risk-seismic-zone/Article1-742763.aspx

10 minutes into the conversation, one of my flatmates, with face-pack on her skin asks if I could feel something and I said yes, i did feel the tremors. 10 more minutes later when I was still talking to Zoo, one of my other flatmates padded along and asked if I felt something. I said yes but it's been a while. So she said that 'dude I was on the phone at that point'. The funny part is that all of us must have been on our telephones when the tremors happened. And it's almost satiric that we had so carefully allowed the shock to filter, to subside and then ooze out, almost like a choreography. Even more satirically, I had this overwhelming urge to put on my computer, Twitter and break it to the rest of the world. And alas, I wasn't the only one. I was thinking the news had already traveled and trended some. Delhi/NCR/Parts of Haryana had just witnessed an earthquake measuring 6.6 on the richter scale with the epicentre yet to have been determined. 

anyhow it's passed and behind us. i came here, in the first place to write because i thought I get consumed by an overpowering urge to self-actualize. In doing so, I usually read more without understanding much, do a  couple of surya namaskar to feel healthier and write. Why I think by writing I would self-actualize is something I have no recollection of. 

Later