i have come to some important conclusions today. less is more...and much much better. So the dissertation that i was fussing over so much, has completely left me sad and rather pitiful. I'd read up online on climate change and all and apparently the panel couldn't see through my focus at all. So the focus which was supposed to be broader in the beginning and much narrower later, from the literature review to the research proposal showed little. so they asked me to redo it a little bit, maybe having a more specific thing to talk about. So for the presentation, I ranted and ranted,which is what I do in most presentations and bored the panel. And I felt both things, ranting and boring. Anyway, apparently my proposal wouldn't be able to achieve much in 2 years let alone 5 months.
But the feedback was healthy. Very nicely i got *u**** over by the best, most harmless panel, who wouldn't harm a fly :) So now, I'll work on it again. Hopefully I should not flunk, but who can guarantee that.
So that was the sad bit, but then I slept and dreamt one dream after another. Really funny ones, which I remember but they're insanely arbid. So thankfully PK woke me up to play tennis. These days, tennis keeps me going. So however bad our days go, it's tennis that sort of pulls us out of our sadness :) Oh by the way, these days both PK and i are improving a great deal. There are things we can do now, that we woudn't be able to do before. These days balls go in the same direction as we mean to hit it. We can play half volleys if balls are very long. We can also defy the net in a manner of kissing it and having it pass because of more power in shots. We dont have to run around much fetching the ball from the shrubs full of snakes and frogs. Some of the most comforting things are, when I run through the length and breadth of the court to play and manage to send the ball flying in PK's court. Also, a fresh glass of nimbu paani is absolute bliss. It's as comforting as the thought of a big task accomplished and accomplished well, after a lot of work. Anyhow, I love to play with virgin balls huhahaha. I can't say whether the pun was intended or not. Anyway, they make a sound that old ones don't and don't need that much power. Even some of the native monkeys come and watch our game sometimes. Then random people playing basketball come and say that we're picking up well :D But anyway, I'm too old to do anything about it. I just plain love playing :D
So ya tennis is great. Then we had the Y Y session, where we talked about expectations and how to plan careers. We spoke about how compromises are choices and therefore, deserve no reciprocity. We were taught to learn to enjoy the journey, enjoy every step. We shouldnt be fussy about how the first step is going to look, because that will not ensure our second one. Infact we should be more concerned to enjoy the thrills in the journey. All this for our career. Also, in view of the prevailing recession, we are constantly warned against bad placements scene.
But the day's not come to an end yet. It's 5.30 in the morning and therefore it must be 12 in Greenwich and breakfast-like time in oriental countries. Good god, I must sleep or I'll get dark circles. Worse, I won't get breakfast. But before that, I played lots of Monopoly with Nerdy, who by the way has completely transformed after her recent trip to Calcutta. But no one should play Monopoly with her. She intimidates and knows all the rules properly and makes for demanding partner. She knows how to trade and add and subtract money, and consolidate houses and hotels. Infact, after playing Monopoly today, I thought it must've played an important role in making her the way she is. That's a dangerous thing :D.
But played with less thinking kind of people, I'm sure it can be a very interesting game. I'll wait for my chances with some other people. Till then
later
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