of bizarre films and resolutions!

Today, as a part of our film studies module we studied two ful-length feature films. One was called 'Meshes of the afternoon', one of the bizarrest films one can watch. It belonged to the 'avant-garde' genre of films, which totally violates time and the natural development through temporal logic. So the film kept jumping leading to a lot of repetition and really crazy and dark stuff. But it was different. Apparently there were dream sequences within dream sequences and one couldn't tell where one ended and the other began.

But to come to think of it, our dreams are not how they're usually shown in films, where one knows perfectly what is happening, exactly replicating what might happen in real life, or seeming like an almost a fancy aspiration like meeting a celebrity or the girl you really like or finding the perfect job or going to a really beautiful destination or a holiday, or anything else which is idyllic. Infact I don't know about others, but the kind of dreams I dream are usually very mundane, run-of-the-mill, slightly inexplicable, very unrememberable, incomprehensible perspectives, exaggerations and a sort-of inertia in movement. But anyhow that's how the film was made, just like a bizarre dream, which makes little sense to the trained mind.

Then we saw one Wang Kar Wai film made in HongKong, where two seemingly disparate stories come together. It was one of the more gripping films that I've seen, more riveting and absorbing because of the music, characters, dialogues and pace. It's pretty interesting, that's all I can say of it.

Ya, so then, I subdued and almost fought my urge to sleep, went for some coffee and played badminton for a bit. What happened today was quite appalling. I'm sort of amazed at men. I'll tell why. So ya I was one of the many people wanting to play. I was also one of the first people to have come to play.

So ya, once when we played singles, not only were many people not interested to play with me because of the obvious talent I have, but I almost caused a sort of tiff, when I was done, because the guy I played with refused to count the game he played with me. Which was a horrible feeling, much like how a child feels when he's given a 'kacchi ghodi' while playing with slightly older children in the colony, but more than that, I was thinking what place does mediocrity have? Should mediocre people be given all their sweet time to improve with better players or should they just give it over. Anyhow, it's not even about that completely. I think people do just what is convenient for them, without thinking how the argument might work in some other situation. I mean to say, that people who profess first come first served may not even believe in it completely when they're amongst the last people, wanting to play first. But that's just one. There's a lot of condesenscion and arrogance in these men I was playing with.

So anyway, without complaining much, I should tell how Ive made some resolutions. I will not procrastinate from tomorrow onwards. I will read much more, spend a lot of time playing and lead a very disciplined life in terms of eating and sleeping. You see, there's no particular occasion but lately I feel like doing these things a lot. I daresay I stick by them all too long but even if the frequency of these resolutions increase it'll not harm much.

So ya, I'll be an enlightened girl starting from tomorrow. I wish my self a lot of luck. I also wish everyone gets a decent house to stay with the people they really want to stay with and gets to visit lots of new places to eat lots of new food and see lots of new faces in this world.

Later